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  There was only one worrisome moment when the plates were brought out and I was unable to identify their contents. My sister, although not a picky eater, did not have what anyone would call an adventurous palate.

  “What is this stuff?” Carrington whispered, staring dubiously at the collection of strips and balls and chunks on her plate.

  “It’s meat,” I said out of the side of my mouth.

  “What kind of meat?” she persisted, poking at one of the balls with the tines of her fork.

  “I don’t know. Just eat it.”

  By this time Churchill had noticed Carrington’s frown. “What’s the matter?” he asked.

  Carrington pointed to her plate with her fork. “I’m not gonna eat something if I don’t know what it is.”

  Churchill, Gretchen, and Jack laughed, while Gage regarded us without expression. Dawnelle was in the process of explaining to the housekeeper that she wanted her food taken back to the kitchen and weighed carefully. Three ounces of meat was all she wanted.

  “That’s a good rule,” Churchill said to Carrington. He told her to move her plate closer to his. “All this stuff is what they call mixed grill. Look here—these little things are venison strips. This is elk, and those are moose meatballs, and that’s wild turkey sausage.” Glancing up at me, he added, “No emu,” and winked.

  “It’s like eating a whole episode of Wild Kingdom,” I said, entertained by the sight of Churchill trying to talk a reluctant eight-year-old into something.

  “I don’t like elk,” Carrington told him.

  “You can’t be sure of that until you try some. Go on, take a bite.”

  Obediently Carrington ate some of the foreign meat, along with some baby vegetables and roasted potatoes. Baskets of bread were passed around, containing rolls and steaming squares of cornbread. To my consternation, I saw Carrington digging through one of the baskets. “Baby, don’t do that,” I murmured. “Just take the top piece.”

  “I want the regular kind,” she complained.

  I looked at Churchill apologetically. “I usually make our cornbread in a skillet.”

  “How about that.” He grinned at Jack. “That’s the way your mama used to make it, wasn’t it?”

  “Yes, sir,” Jack said with a reminiscent smile. “I’d crumble it hot into a glass of milk…man, that was good eating.”

  “Liberty makes the best cornbread,” Carrington said earnestly. “You should ask her to make it for you sometime, Uncle Churchill.”

  Out the corner of my eye, I saw Gage stiffen at the word “uncle.”

  “I think I just might,” Churchill said, giving me a fond smile.

  After dinner, Churchill took us on a tour through the mansion, despite my protestations that he must be tired. The others went to a sitting room for coffee, while Churchill, Carrington, and I went off by ourselves.

  Our host maneuvered the wheelchair in and out of the elevator, along the hallways, pausing at the doorways of certain rooms he wanted us to see. Ava had decorated the whole place by herself, he said with pride. She had liked European styles, French things, choosing antique pieces with visible wear and tear to balance elegance with comfort.

  We peered into bedrooms with their own little balconies, and windows made of diamond-cut glass. Some of the rooms had been decorated like a rustic chateau, the walls aged with hand-sponged glaze, the ceilings crossed with hammerhead beams. There was a library, an exercise room with a sauna and a racquetball court, a music room with furniture upholstered in cream velvet, a theater room with a TV screen that covered an entire wall. There was an indoor pool and an outdoor pool, the latter centered in a landscaped area with a pavilion, a summer kitchen, covered decks, and an outdoor fireplace.

  Churchill turned his charm up to full wattage. Several times the crafty old scoundrel gave me a meaningful glance, like when Carrington ran to the Steinway and plunked a few experimental notes, or when she got excited at the sight of the negative-edge pool. She could have this all the time, was his unspoken subtext. You’re the only one keeping it from her. And he laughed when I scowled at him.

  His point had been made, however. And there was something else I noticed, something he might not have been fully aware of. I was struck by the way they interacted, the natural ease between them. The small girl with no father or grandfather. The old man who hadn’t spent enough time with his own children when they were young. He regretted that, he had told me. Being Churchill, he couldn’t have taken any other road. But now that he’d finally gotten to where he’d wanted to go, he could look back and see the distant landmarks of what he’d missed.

  I was troubled for both their sakes. I had a lot to think about.

  When we were sufficiently dazzled and Churchill had begun to tire, we went to join the others. Seeing the grayish tint of his face, I checked my watch. “It’s time for more Vicodin,” I murmured. “I’ll run up to your room to get it.”

  He nodded, his jaw set against the oncoming ache. Some kinds of pain you have to catch before it starts, or you never quite get the better of it.

  “I’ll go with you,” Gage said, rising from his chair. “You may not remember the way.”

  Even though his tone was pleasant, the words bit through the comfortable feeling I’d gotten from being with Churchill.

  “Thanks,” I said warily, “but I can find it.”

  He wouldn’t back off. “I’ll start you off. It’s easy to get lost in this place.”

  “Thanks,” I said. “That’s real nice of you.”

  But as we walked together out of the living room, I knew what was coming. He had something to say to me, and it wasn’t going to be remotely nice. When we reached the foot of the stairs, reasonably out of earshot of the others, Gage stopped and turned me to face him. His touch made me freeze.

  “Look,” he said curtly, “I don’t give a damn if you’re banging the old man. That’s not my business.”

  “You’re right,” I said.

  “But I draw the line when you bring it into this house.”

  “It’s not your house.”

  “He built it for my mother. This is where the family gets together, where we spend holidays.” He looked at me with contempt. “You’re on dangerous ground. You set foot on this property again and I’ll personally throw you out on your ass. Understand?”

  I understood. But I didn’t flinch or step back. I had learned a long time ago not to run from pit bulls.

  I went from crimson to skull-white. The rush of my blood seemed to scald the insides of my veins. He knew nothing about me, this arrogant bastard, knew nothing about the choices I’d made or the things I’d given up and all the easy ways out I could have taken but didn’t, didn’t, and he was such a complete and unredeemable asshole that if he’d suddenly caught on fire, I wouldn’t have bothered to spit on him.

  “Your father needs his medicine,” I said, stone-faced.

  His eyes narrowed. I tried to hold his gaze but I couldn’t, the day’s events had drawn my emotions too close to the surface. So I stared at a distant point across the room and concentrated on showing nothing, feeling nothing. After an unbearably long time I heard him say, “This better be the last time I lay eyes on you.”

  “Go to hell,” I said, and went upstairs at a measured pace, while my instincts urged me to bolt like a jackrabbit.

  I had another private conversation that evening, with Churchill. Jack had long since departed, and mercifully so had Gage, to take his size-zero girlfriend home. Gretchen showed Carrington her collection of antique cast-iron banks, one shaped like Humpty-Dumpty, another like a cow whose back legs kicked a farmer when you dropped a coin in. While they played on the other side of the room, I sat on an ottoman beside Churchill’s wheelchair.

  “You been thinking?” he asked.

  I nodded. “Churchill…some people aren’t going to be happy if we go ahead with this.”

  He didn’t pretend not to understand. “No one’s going to give you a problem, Liberty,” he said.
“I’m the big dog here.”

  “I need a day or two to think it over.”

  “You got it.” He knew when to push, and when to let it be.

  Together we looked across the room at Carrington, who chortled in delight as a little cast-iron monkey flipped a penny into a box with its tail.

  That weekend we went for Sunday dinner at Miss Marva’s. The ranch house was filled with the smell of beer pot roast and mashed potatoes. You would have thought Miss Marva and Mr. Ferguson had been married for fifty years, they were so comfortable with each other.

  While Miss Marva took Carrington back into her sewing room, I sat in the den with Mr. Ferguson and laid out my dilemma. He listened in silence, his expression mild, his hands templed on his midriff.

  “I know what the safe choice is,” I told him. “When you get down to it, there’s no reason for me to take this kind of risk. I’m doing great at Zenko’s. And Carrington likes her school and I’m afraid it would be hard on her to leave her friends. Trying to fit in at a new place where all the other kids are being dropped off in Mercedes. I just…I just wish…”

  There was a smile in Mr. Ferguson’s soft brown eyes. “I have the feeling, Liberty, that you’re hoping for someone to give you permission to do what you want to do.”

  I let my head flop back against the back of the recliner. “I’m so not like those people,” I said to the ceiling. “Oh, if you’d just seen that house, Mr. Ferguson. It made me feel so…oh, I don’t know. Like a hundred-dollar hamburger.”

  “I don’t follow you.”

  “Even if it’s served on a china plate in an expensive restaurant, it’s still just a hamburger.”

  “Liberty,” Mr. Ferguson said, “there’s no reason for you to feel inferior to them. To anyone. When you get to my age, you come to realize all people are the same.”

  Of course a mortician would say that. Regardless of financial status, race, and all the other things that distinguished people from each other, they all ended up naked on a slab in his basement.

  “I can see how it looks that way from your end of things, Mr. Ferguson,” I said. “But from where I was looking last night in River Oaks, those people are definitely different from us.”

  “You remember the Hopsons’ oldest boy, Willie? Went off to Texas Christian?”

  I wondered what Willie Hopson had to do with my dilemma. But there was usually a point to Mr. Ferguson’s stories if you were patient enough to wait for it. “During his junior year,” Mr. Ferguson continued, “Willie went to Spain for a study-abroad program. To get an idea of how other people live. Learn something about how they think and their values. It did him a lot of good. I think you ought to consider doing the same.”

  “You want me to go to Spain?”

  He laughed. “You know exactly what I’m saying, Liberty. You could think of the Travis family as your study-abroad program. I don’t think it’s going to hurt you or Carrington to spend a little time in a place you don’t belong. It may benefit you in ways you don’t expect.”

  “Or not,” I said.

  He smiled. “Only one way to find out, isn’t there?”

  Chapter 17

  Every time Gage Travis looked at me, you could tell he wanted to tear me limb from limb. Not in a fury, but in a process of slow and methodical dismemberment.

  Jack and Joe dropped by about once a week, but Gage was the one who came to the house on a daily basis. He helped Churchill with things like climbing in and out of the shower and getting dressed, and taking him to doctor’s appointments. No matter how much I disliked Gage, I had to admit he was a good son. He could have insisted that Churchill hire a nurse, but instead he showed up to take care of his father himself. Eight o’clock every morning, never one minute early or late. He was good for Churchill, who was cantankerous from the combination of boredom, pain, and constant inconvenience. But no matter how Churchill growled or snapped, I never once saw one sign of impatience from Gage. He was always calm, tolerant, and capable.

  Until he was around me, and then he was a first-class jerk. Gage made it clear that in his opinion I was a parasite, a gold digger, and worse. He took no notice of Carrington other than to demonstrate a curt awareness that there was a short person in the house.

  The day we moved in, our possessions crammed into cardboard boxes, I thought Gage would throw me out bodily. I had begun to unpack in the bedroom I had chosen, a beautiful space with wide windows and pale moss-green walls, and cream-colored molding. What had decided me on the room was the grouping of black-and-white photographs on one wall. They were Texas images: a cactus, a barbed-wire fence, a horse, and to my delight, a front shot of an armadillo looking straight into the camera. I’d taken that as an auspicious sign. Carrington was going to sleep two doors down, in a small but pretty room with yellow and white striped paper on the walls.

  As I opened my suitcase on the king-sized bed, Gage appeared in the doorway. My fingers curled around the edge of the suitcase, my knuckles jutting until you could have shredded carrots on them. Even knowing I was reasonably safe—surely Churchill would keep him from killing me—I was still alarmed. He filled up the doorway, looking big and mean and pitiless.

  “What the hell are you doing here?” His soft voice unsettled me far more than shouting would have.

  I answered through dry lips. “Churchill said I could choose any room I wanted.”

  “You can either leave voluntarily, or I’ll throw you out. Believe me, you’d rather go on your own.”

  I didn’t move. “You have a problem, you talk to your father. He wants me here.”

  “I don’t give a shit. Get going.”

  A little trickle of sweat went down the middle of my back. I didn’t move.

  He reached me in three strides and took my upper arm in a painful grip.

  A gasp of surprise was torn from my throat. “Take your hands off me!” I strained and shoved at him, but his chest was as unyielding as the trunk of a live oak.

  “I told you before I wasn’t going to—” He broke off. I was released with a suddenness that caused me to stagger back a step. Our sharp respirations pierced the silence. He was staring at the dresser, where I had set out a few pictures in stand-up frames. Trembling, I put my hand on the part of my arm he’d gripped. I rubbed the spot as if to erase his touch. But I could still feel an invisible handprint embedded in my skin.

  He went to the dresser and picked up one of the photos. “Who is this?”

  It was a picture of Mama, taken not long after she’d married my father. She had been impossibly young and blond and beautiful. “Don’t touch that,” I cried, rushing forward to snatch the photo from him.

  “Who is it?” he repeated.

  “My mother.”

  His head bent as he stood over me, looking into my face with a speculative gaze. I was so bewildered by the abrupt halt of our conflict that I couldn’t summon the words to ask what in God’s name was going through his mind. I was absurdly conscious of the sound of my breathing, and his, the counterpoint gradually evening until the rhythm of our lungs was identical. Light from the plantation shutters made bright stripes across both of us, casting shadow spokes from his lashes down the crests of his cheek. I could see the whisker grain of his close-shaven skin, foretelling a heavy five o’clock shadow.

  I dampened my dry lips with my tongue, and his gaze followed the movement. We were standing too close. I could smell the bite of starch in his collar, and a whiff of warm male skin, and I was shocked by my response. In spite of everything, I wanted to lean even closer. I wanted a deep breath of him.

  A frown tugged between his brows. “We’re not finished,” he muttered, and left the room without another word.

  I had no doubt he’d gone straight to Churchill, but it would be a long time before I found out what was said between them, or why Gage had decided to abandon that particular battle. All I knew was there was no more interference from Gage as we settled in. He left before supper, while Churchill, Gretchen, Carrington, an
d I celebrated our first night together. We ate fish steamed in little white paper bags and rice mixed with finely chopped peppers and vegetables that made it look like confetti.

  When Gretchen asked if our rooms were all right and did we have everything we needed, Carrington and I both replied enthusiastically. Carrington said her canopy bed made her feel like a princess. I said I loved my room too, the soft green walls were so soothing, and I especially liked the black-and-white photographs.

  “You’ll have to tell Gage,” Gretchen said, beaming. “He took those pictures in college for a photography-class assignment. He had to lie in wait two hours for that armadillo to come out of its burrow.”

  A horrifying suspicion darted through my mind. “Oh,” I said, and swallowed hard. “Gretchen, by any chance…does that happen to be…” I could barely speak his name. “Gage’s room?”

  “As a matter of fact, yes,” came her placid reply.

  Oh, God. Of all the guest rooms on the second floor, I had managed to pick his. For him to walk in and see me there, taking occupation of his territory…I was amazed he hadn’t tossed me like a bull with a rodeo clown in a barrel. “I didn’t know,” I said thinly. “Someone should have said something. I’ll move to a different—”

  “No, no, he never stays here,” Gretchen said. “He doesn’t live but ten minutes away. The room’s been empty for years, Liberty. I’m sure it will please Gage for someone to get some use out of it.”

  Like hell, I thought, and reached for my wineglass.

  Later that evening I emptied my cosmetics bags beside the bathroom sink. As I pulled out the top drawer, I heard something rattling and rolling around. Investigating, I found a few personal items that looked as though they’d been there a while. A used toothbrush, a pocket comb, an ancient tube of hair gel…and a box of condoms.

  I turned and closed the bathroom door before examining the box more closely. There were three foil packets left out of twelve. It was a brand I had never seen before, British-made. And there was a funny phrase on the side of the box, “kite-marked for your peace of mind.” Kite-marked? What the heck did that mean? It sort of looked like a European version of the Good Housekeeping seal of approval. I couldn’t help noticing the little yellow sunburst at the corner of the box, printed with the words “Extra Large.” This was appropriate, I reflected sourly, in light of the fact that I already thought of Gage Travis as a big prick.